The day started out slowly I woke up at around 3 PM today a little sad because of what was in my mind, Father it was the work yesterday on the post of my life that I realized how long it had been sense I had reflected on him.

Also when I awoke I asked my sister where my dads only CD was and after a little looking I found it, A small burnt CD with the best 20 christain songs of the planet, My fathers work.

They where good songs but unlike other musics of the genre these had more meaning and where sung in a melody that reflected the words of the lord more then anything, My prayers had been answered as I found the voice of my father in them...

His songs where usualy 3 to 4 minutes non stop singing vary few verses where the same and all had a strong meaning that came from the bible in compleation.

After Ripping the MP3 files off of my fathers CD I listened to it and refected on him it made me really sad but reminded me that I did all that I was able and made me proud at the same time.

No visiters today so I was with my family, Diane found out about my other posts and she was dusturbed abit by my writing be it the part about my father or the part about Kaity I don't know but things are a little different and the fact is that when Kaity called she seemed abit tense when talking to me, I hope it is my imagination I am who I am and that has not changed I searve god and have bannished all those thought that make me unclean...

I have made a plan that I will become better and better in the lord with his help and I will be me the way god wanted, Clean, Pure and Worthy of note.

This Chronicle of Mine is not too give an image but too show me as I am me al my thoughts bad or good, Wonderfull or Wonderless, A way for me too view my actions from the outside and better myself before I do somthing I regret and not even know.

Though I was rased in a Family of mostly girls I am a Man and have a hard time showing emotions and so i must deal with them as I can, talking with kenny and writing them down, I hate bottling it up but its my (Guy) Nature to do so...

I'm tired and the warmth of my bed calls to me, I will write later.